Former NFL player on closeted football life and the toll it took.

Ryan O’Callaghan during his Patriots years. (Photo by Keith Nordstrom; courtesy New England Patriots via Akashic Books)

These days gay former football player Ryan O’Callaghan prepares halibut in white wine sauce instead of preparing to end his life. 

“I enjoy cooking,” he says. “I have some very real injuries that keep me from long hikes and things, but…